This weekend was my annual Disneyland trip for Memorial Weekend. Like every year it was an eye opener but this time I actually have my shit together and everything is set in motion. I thrive to be someone great, to be happy with the life I live, and to do everything I only imagined while being successful. That’s what I don’t get, when people don’t have any drive or passion in life, they’re just content with a normal everyday job, family, etc. I know what I want and now it’s just a matter of not giving up and pushing myself until I get these things!
First I watch The Hunger Games and then I watched The Girl with the Dragon Tattoo and now I don’t know what to do with my life. I am now in a depression. I would give anything to be an actress and have the privilege to play such dark emotional characters. Fuck I just want to do something where I can be creative. I hate my retail job and I actually don’t care much for working at a restaurant. I’m not a lazy person, I enjoy working but I want to work and do something that I enjoy, that I actually can say is my career. I was not put on this earth to do bitch work.
People who constantly post photos of their kid on FaceBook…… It’s like get a new hobby already!
So I come home and The Notebook is on. This got me thinking, I personally know a few girls who just don’t like the movie, that being said I truly don’t understand why. Yes it is a “romance” film but it’s not all lovey dovey. Myself never being in a relationship I don’t know 100% what it takes to be in one but I could imagine The Notebook not being entirely far fetched. Two strangers, he wanted her and she wasn’t having it but somehow he won her heart. They fell in love but their love wasn’t perfect, they fought like all the time but in the end they loved each other. Her parents basically tore them apart and in the meantime she fell in love again with another man but in the end somehow fate brought them back together. I mean say what you want but that sounds like something that happens in real life. Not to mention what girl wouldn’t want a boy to write her a year worth of letters?! The Notebook is beautiful, and if you don’t agree well please tell me your opinions!
The more and more I think about it the more and more I regret not taking the job at JV, I mean I could of worked both jobs then quit FE after Black Friday but instead I whole heartingly thought I was going to get the restaurant job so I didn’t take the JV job. Fuck me I make bad decisions. Honestly next time I need to write everything out as well as the pros and cons to each situation. This is why I never get ahead in life
I don’t understand why a girl needs to have her boyfriend or friend/s in the same dressing room as her? Like doesn’t your boyfriend see you in your underwear enough, and why would your friends want to watch you change? That’s the number one thing that annoys me working in a dressing room! And I love how when I tell them only one person can be in the dressing room they give me a dirty look!
This bitch had the nerve to tell me “thank god we’re moving, well at least I am, you gonna bail?” Bitch no! First of all you didn’t even get accepted to any schools yet and secondly I don’t have my mommies money to pay for everything, unlike you I’ll most likely have to work two jobs and juggle school just to live! I hate when people don’t have to work for anything and then judge people who have to……
This is my day rant, went to work 9:30-1:30, already starting off on a bad note with my grandparents practically dying. Get to work six minutes late, tell one store manger that wasn’t supposed to be there that I was late because of family problems, he LAUGHS, really bitch is what I think. Anyways turns out I’m the only “sales associate” who is working with THREE motha fuckin “store managers” I’m like kill me now! Well the store opens and they fucking put on “Rapture” which is hardcore rap and Vanilla fucking Ice, I’m like “damn I should of brought more bullets for this imaginary gun.” So now I’m “replenishing” which is a bunch of bull shit and I get told by every manager how I’m not doing one thing or another thing right. Then “Pariah” comes in and asks “how are you replenishing?” I’m like “just jumping around seeing what needs to be put out.” He’s like “well there is 800 items in here and blah fucking blah” and I’m like “well no one does it your way, everyone does it their own way” he goes “okay I’ll talk to them but right now I’m going to write you up.” I honestly hate everyone who works there except for my (don’t take this the wrong way” gays, they are the only people who make me like where I work, I can’t wait for the end of April so some people can GTFO! Oh also I work with a fucking drug dealer, so if anyone wants drugs holler at your girl and I’ll score you some from this girl who is a “key holder” and totes sounds like a stoner. I’m like really?! The cherry on the fucking pie though had to be my aunt and uncle. Like I felt like I was in a horror movie it was so ridiculous! Also my “open interview” because a “turn you application in” fingers crossed they call me because I HATE retail and I want to try restaurants. Actually take that back, I don’t hate retail I just hate some of the people in “higher” positions that shouldn’t necessarily be there!